Insanity: applying to GTA again and expecting a new result

I never said what happened with Google Teacher Academy Sydney.

If you remember, I had a pretty low self-esteem February, with a miniature breakdown where I expressed how alone I felt, professionally. To fight this, I decided to apply to the Google Teacher Academy being held in Australia. I put in hours and hours of writing a poem, recording audio (in one take), and building a concept for a kinetic typography video. Here was the response:

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I was pretty crushed. I don’t know why—of the hundred, and probably thousands, who apply, they only let in 50, and I don’t know that I have the kind of credentials that Google is looking for , so it shouldn’t have been a surprise. Also, it would have been a bit of a logistical nightmare—I’d have to leave my students, plan for subs, pay for my own travel, and leave my wife for a couple of days.

Maybe, then it was for the best. Maybe going to GTA Sydney was not what God had for me. Maybe I was too focused on gaining glory in the eyes of man, and not serving my God #1. Maybe attending was not what was right for me at the time.

23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, 24 since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.25 Anyone who does wrong will be repaid for their wrongs, and there is no favoritism.

Colossians 3:23-25

After taking some time to reflect, I finally felt peace about not being selected for Google Teacher Academy Sydney. And armed with my new lesson, I decided I was done with GTA.

Then I saw this:


Here’s why this was a big deal:

  • I live in Taiwan all year long; however, when I fly back to the US, it’ll be to my wife’s house in Indianapolis.
  • Indianapolis is approximately 3 hours away from Chicago.
  • The only month I’ll be in the States this year will be July; however, I won’t be in Indy the entire time. In the middle of July, we’ll be going to Kansas and Nebraska to see my family. From Omaha, we’ll be heading back to Indianapolis around the 22nd of July.

I’m scared to say “it’s meant to be”, because if when I don’t get in, I don’t want to be crushed, but the circumstances were so perfect, it’s like GTA Chicago was personally inviting me to try one last time.

SO… 50ish more hours of video-creation later…

This is my last time applying, and I am 100% ok with that. If I get in, praises to Jesus. If I don’t, may I always remember to stay humble and keep my students #1, above everything!

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