A few days ago, I had a bit of a breakdown on my Twitter account:
#Rant: I’m sitting here at home, reading some amazing stuff about Apple’s Distinguished Educators program and Google’s Teacher Academy.
I’m feeling disconnected from so much of the cool stuff that’s happening around the world in Educational Technology, even though I’m “in” it
I LOVE teaching and I LOVE where I am, but I guess I’m just feel like I want… more. But where do I start?
Basically, it’s this—I feel like an outsider, but I KNOW STUFF like an insider. How does one shift that? Blogging? Tweeting? #edchat-ting?
#Rant‘s about over; just a lonely teacher who’s looking for the kind of support he’d gladly give, but in a professional sense.
I’m looked to as a #tech leader at my school, but it’s just frustrating for that kind of thing to always flow OUT of me, not ever in.
Sadly, no responses to any of my “cries for help.” Maybe I was just lonely because my wife was in the States with family, and maybe it was just one of those low-self-esteem days, but at some point, I realized that if I wanted to get myself to where I want to me, I’d have to do something about it.
So do something I did. After >50 hours of writing a poem, recording audio (in one take), and building a concept for a kinetic typography video, THIS happened:
It’s a professional life goal to one day attend one of these Google Teacher Academy things. I’ve applied a couple of times in the past, but I didn’t have enough time to put in a lot of effort into a video, and, frankly, I didn’t realize how involved some of these videos can be. The entire process isn’t based upon a 60-second clip, either—there’s an application I had to fill out with information about me, my education, my awards, and so on. But, as I stated earlier, it’s not like I have a lot of experience on paper, so I felt a lot of extra pressure to pour more into the video.
Google decides right around my birthday, in a couple of weeks, which 50 teachers get to attend, and I’m hoping (but not expecting) to hear some good news. Wish me luck!